Profound (non)wisdom

It’s simple. Seize the day, live each like it were your last. But really, when was the last time I actually lived without a care or schedule?

I’ve been so caught up with needing a routine lately. All summer I’ve been making plans, goals, to-do lists, in an effort to make it seem like I have something to do and places to be. I wanted direction and I thought my lists would get me there. When my efforts seemed to fruitless, I got depressed.

After a late chat at 3 a.m, and a simple reminder, I realized there’s only a month left of summer. For me, this whole summer has been defined by doing things on the whim. I took on odd jobs, tried writing for different magazines, and went to bed and woke from slumber at any hour I wanted. What’s so bad about that? Doesn’t that sound like a terrific summer?

I wasn’t always content with it. I guess I was so enthralled with wanting my summer to be defined by accomplishments I forgot to enjoy the little things. I needed to enjoy the company of others, when we’re all relaxed and sipping beers by the beachside. I needed to remind myself that days when we’re all together eating all-you-can-eat sushi or spending late nights stuffing pizza in our faces…those days are numbered.

Hell, my sister has just over two weeks left in North America, before she’s shipping off to St. Maarten. I’m not looking forward to the impending trip to the airport, and the months of only skype-communication before we see each other again. But moping around would be the worst way to send her off. It’d be the worst way to wrap up this summer.

So…carpe diem. We’ve all said it before. Now’s the time I live by it.

“You’ve got plenty of time for tomorrow. but these tonights they’re going by fast…there are only so many of these nights left.” - Ed Burke, from Kenny Chesney’s Boys of Fall MV.